I saw an interracial gay couple in the city last night and my heart almost melted. They were holding hands and gushing at each other. And the black guy was all googly-eyed and that cute kind of shy, and the white guy was the domineering one, taking care of his own. Looking at them made me think that we have come a very long way. It made me smile from ear to ear to see that love is no longer being so stringently defined. It makes me smile to see a couple that probably faces double the amount of discrimination and backlash, walk so freely and lovingly in the city. I hope that as time progresses, things will get better. And love will be love, an free-feeling emotion rather than a strictly defined word.
And don’t keep me hanging on the line, baby
Tell me if you want me
And if you don’t just let me know
Just answer one question
Don’t keep me here guessing
Tell me now.
— Can You Believe Robin Thicke
Day Twenty Two: A song someone has sung to you.
Don’t Change by Musiq Soulchild
I used to talk to this kid back in high school and everyone said we should’ve been together but we had little issues and it just never worked out. But anyway, one day I went on my Facebook and saw someone left a video on my wall. It was him singing this song to me. The relationship me and him had was a weird one and I never knew if he was serious, but that was almost two years ago. And it will still be the sweetest thing a guy has ever done for me.
Day Sixteen: A song that has made you cry.
On Bended Knee by Boys II Men.
Words can’t explain what this song does to me. I usually don’t “cry” because of songs but this one’s a semi tear-jerker because I only listen to it during times of horrible heartbreak and defeat. Boys II Men is my shit. Real R&B.
Day Fourteen: A song that reminds you of your boyfriend/girlfriend.
Ordinary Love Shit by Joe Budden.
For every female who thinks that their man isn’t doing enough. For every female who is looking for that “perfect man.” Shut the fuck up and listen to Joe Budden. Change your state of mind.
Day Eight: A song that reminds you of your first love.
He dedicated this song to me after I told him about my past relationships a couple of months ago. He said he kinda gets what I’m saying and he can see its effects on me. He called me later and told me to listen to this song. He didn’t say anything else to me, just to listen to that song. He told me he would try not to hurt me but he couldn’t make that promise. And I know that it was probably just game, but that’s when I fell for him. And now that we’re iffy, it breaks my heart to hear it. I felt like he was talking to me through those lyrics and that he truly meant it. Now it’s like he didn’t live up to what he said he would do. And now I have pain that I want him to feel. And fix.
Honestly, on some real shit, niggas need to stop sucking their own dicks and realize that have a real one by their sides. Matter of fact, females need to wipe the cum of their eyes and see that that nigga ain’t shit. Either way, shit needs to change.
